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[11 Aug 2004|11:27pm] |
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freddie's back.
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[05 Jul 2004|11:40am] |
i haven't exactly paid attention but i know for a fact that i'm sad i'm not part of the o.c. cast right now. my life is so dull in comparison :(
mena is making me update. she is going to be so sorry. i've been thinking about the concept of "hollywood" lately and i have decided i hate it. it doesn't really take anything anymore, if you know what i mean. american idol is a perfect example of this and it's a little terrifying. it's a car wreck, you don't want to get involved but you slow down to maybe catch a glimpse anyway. within a month people are creating web sites for people they could have been passing on the street a million times before. tv is that powerful and that's what it takes to be a celebrity. i'll refrain from name dropping because that's not the point but to get the world's attention you should really accomplish being more than a pretty face. somewhere the scale of importance became seriously fucked up. i do believe that artists make up a necessary part of the population but i can't figure out when they became objects worth worship. let's take actors. historically they couldn't take themselves seriously, because of their work. they travelled around in big groups, played pranks, sung and danced and took life for what it is and some detested them and other were jealous but i think above all they were happy. or they would be farmers instead, you know. they weren't particular high in society but to entertain people was a calling. then i won't spell out the comparison with today's actors who are treated better than royalty.
most of the time i don't think i'm a good actor but i'm still always proud to be part of such a tradition. a lot of the time really good actors are recognized and get the attention they deserve. i just wish the rest of them would stay far off my radar and now i'm bored with typing and probably left out 34678,5 points i meant to make so i'll come off ignorant once again. at least there are words attached to my username and icon on your friends page so don't complain.
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[04 May 2004|02:13pm] |
wow when i log in i realize i have actual people added to my friends list. i read that whole pro/con thing in mbp about locking your journal and i don't really see the point because it's not like you're giving away governmental secrets here. sorry, i'm a little obsessed and i've been watching too much alias lately. i love that show so much and it's the only thing worth watching now that sex and the city is over. is it true they're signed for something like eight seasons? i hope so. you have to respect a television show that will cast tarantino, who is my latest project by the way. i may be no uma but i'm confident he will save my career. he hasn't picked up the phone yet but he should get tired of the constant noise soon. next week maybe. i'll keep you posted.
ryan is back and he's as wonderful as ever. i'm really blessed when it comes to friends. i've had the pleasure of working with some seriously talented people and when you click with someone in such an intense setting, it's very hard to say goodbye and let go. when buffy got cancelled i was in shock for weeks until it finally hit me that i won't be going to work and see these people every morning and i think that was the worst part. i think for the show's sake it was a good finish but i didn't expect my personal life to come to a halt too. i was around when they dismantled parts of the set and i wanted to cry and tell them to stop because this is my home and you can't tear it apart. and i think what surprised me the most was that i wasn't being sentimental or exaggerating because i have never even had an apartment for seven years. great, i didn't mean to get all depressing.
i think i'm addicted to britney's everytime i've had it on repeat for like two days and i love the video too. her hair is so great, sigh. i read on some site that i'm losing my hair since i bleach and dye it so much, isn't that wonderful. apparently i'm very sensitive about it so i yell at people who mention it. someone is watching pretty woman downstairs so that's probably my cue to take thor for a walk down rodeo drive. next time we can talk about shopping since i don't have a wardrobe to "borrow" from anymore.
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[14 Apr 2004|04:13pm] |
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i really didn't mean to let this thing go untouched for a week but i guess no one will believe me if i say i've been busy so let's call it laziness.
all my friends have been wonderful lately but it gets to a point where it's like, guys i won't kill myself over a breakup please chill the fuck out. that sounds really insensitive and of course i would never say anything like that to them but you can't help but think it, you know. today's been especially crazy because it happens to be MY BIRTHDAY and all i want to do is stay home and watch sex and the city. i know two girls who probably won't let me.
if you keep the same friends list as me it's been kind of hard not to notice my not so public heartbreak. i'd really like to think at least marriage is something permanent but again i'm proven wrong. it's more disappointment than anything. you feel settled and you make plans and it's hard to grasp that it's over even when it's over. marriage might be permanent, feelings aren't and no amount of signatures can change that. you sign prenups and wedding certificates and buy a home worth millions of dollars only to realize it won't mean a thing when you wake up dreading having to talk to the person across the kitchen table.
david still hasn't added me back. and here i was hoping for a reunion. i'm kidding. have a cosmopolitan for me tonight.
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[04 Apr 2004|01:40pm] |
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say whatever you want about my career choices, last week we still managed to top the box office.
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